Faith

Recently one of my roommates came to me with some pretty intense questions about our church. Someone of the things that we believe don't always have a lot of proof and solely rely on faith. It really got me thinking.

I found a quote that I really liked.
There are times when we have to step into the darkness in FAITH, confident that God will place solid ground beneath our feet once we do. - Dieter F. Uchtdorf

I love how he sums it up so simply. We have to trust in God and rely on our faith and everything will work out the way it is supposed to. That is such a powerful statement.

I really don't know what I would do without the gospel in my life. I feel like it would be so lonely and long. Not knowing why you are here and why you are struggling with the things your struggle with. It would be such a hard life. But I know for a fact that our Heavenly Father is there and that he loves us. He is always going  to do what is best for us and help us become the person we want to be. I have so much faith in the Lord and the plan of salvation. I know that this church is true. I know that I have a purpose here on this earth and that I am here for a specific reason at this time. I know that through Him I can repent and be a better person. I know that we have a modern prophet at this time. I love this gospel with all of my being.

Used

You know those times where someone says something or does something and you just feel completely used? I have experienced that feeling a few too many times in my 18 years and it really starts to get old. I think I just have a hard time understanding the whole why do I deserve this when all I tried to do was be nice and be a good friend. It just wears you out. But I have learned a lot from these experiences.

I have learned to let things go. I can't spend my life focusing on all the stupid things that people do. It's time to start focusing on myself and my life. The only person that gets to determine how I react and how I feel about things is me. So why do I let myself get down? If anything I should feel lucky that I figured everything out sooner than later.

I really am so blessed to have so many special people in my life and it's time to start focusing on them rather than the people that were in my life that hurt me. Like the good old song from Frozen suggests I need to "Let it Go" and move on. I get to live my own life and make my own choices.

Starting Over

Exactly one post in 2013 and here it is almost the end of 2014 and I am back. I love redesigning my blog to match who I am now and going through the process of picking a new background and new fonts. There is something cleansing about it. Starting fresh, but my past is still there to remind me where I came from and who I used to be. I may be a completely different person than I was back in 2012 but that used to be me. That still represents who I was and how far I have come since then.

So much has changed in the past two years. I'm off at college starting a whole new life for myself. Figuring out who I really am and where I want to go in life. Meeting new friends and just completely starting over. I didn't really know anyone here when I started, but I guess that's the nice thing about moving away from home. You don't have a past that everyone knows. I'm no longer the girl that everyone in my hometown has known since kindergarten or junior high. I get to be who I want and it's the best feeling ever. I have made some new friends that I know I am going to be friends with for a long time.

There is a reason I am who I am today and why I am here at SUU. I may not know that reason right now, but I know that there is a purpose for me moving three hours away from home. I am so excited to be able to live my life here and figure everything out for myself. It's been an amazing month down here already and I can't wait to see what happens next in this crazy adventure of life.